Too ambitious

The worst projects are the ambitious ones that you don't QUITE have the talent to pull off. Like a little community theater project turning into a full-blown musical when you KNOW you have a handful of good singers, a couple of fair singers, and nowhere near the amount of time to forge it into a work.

Or, worse, trying to write the script for an hour-long play in one sitting. Ambitious; but futile.

All that gets you are frustrations.

I am that ambitious man. I read a few graphic novels and went out and plotted in my mind this vicious little graphic novel with wizards and magicians and demons. It was epic, and yet intensely personal. It was about growing up, and killing one's friends. (well, that's really allegorical in nature)

I have just enough art skills to draw the sketches for the first run through the script. I can't draw nearly well enough to even put together a basic low-rent copy of this thing. I mean, I CAN'T.

But it still niggles at me, and I still work to complete the script. To pull all these complex characters together to the ending that must happen.

Ambitious? You have no idea. Overwrought and overdone? Incredibly so.

I'm like that with all of my projects. I set impossibly high goals, I kill myself trying to achieve them, and then I cry about how hard it is. I set myself against five projects at once and complain I'm spinning my wheels because no single project is getting done. It can't! It's timesharing with all the others!

Of course, this is also the way I work best. This way when I get sick of one incredibly bleak character and just can't write another word about how they plan to kill their parents I can just jump back to another story and start writing a character who might be happy right now. (probably not)

So, there are upsides and downsides.

I think that in the next few months I will focus entirely on one story. One book. One...

Just the thought makes me shiver. And how to choose? Go with the fan favorite, or the one that I think needs the most work? The one closest to done? Or the one with the most developed characters?

I need to think hard about that.

Most people focus on one project and it keeps them sane. I'll try it, but it sounds like a recipe for insanity. How can I ever let go of my other projects?